In a previous post, I mentioned that when I first began practicing demonolatry, one of my greatest fears was that working with demons would destabilize my emotions and perhaps even lead me down the path of madness. I believed that only evil could come from what had always been labeled as "evil," carrying the weight of the Catholic upbringing and society (Spain) in which I was raised.
Another of my major fears was that demons would prevent me from getting proper rest by filling my nights with nightmares. Even before I became involved in demonolatry, I had experienced nightmares from time to time, sometimes going through periods in which they became very frequent. I have always attributed them to my anxious and depressive tendencies, as well as to various traumatic experiences throughout my life. At times, these nightmares would leave me waking up utterly exhausted, as though I had not slept at all. However, since I began working with demons, I have not noticed any significant increase in nightmares, although I have occasionally experienced them after particularly intense rituals. For example, I remember one night after performing a long ritual to ask Duchess Bune for financial abundance. I dreamed that the floor of my house became infested with leaping leeches, and that my father—who had already passed away by then—set the house on fire to destroy those creatures.
Recently, I began thinking about what spiritual solutions I could seek to banish nightmares from my life. Last week, I decided to ask King Bael, one of the spirits I work with most often, for help. Every night before going to bed, I quietly chant his enn ("Ayer secore on ca Bael") or listen to a recording of it while visualizing him as a king dressed in a long black cloak, floating above me and wrapping me in his mantle as though it were a tent. Before falling asleep, I also try to gaze steadily at his sigil for at least a few seconds.
Until now, I had always believed that nightmares originated in the unconscious mind, following the classical psychoanalytic theory. But now I find myself wondering whether some external energy might also play a role, because King Bael seems to act for me like a kind of dreamcatcher, improving the quality of my sleep.
I still need to observe the results of this practice over the medium and long term, but so far, this past week I have slept much better, and the nightmares have disappeared. Thank you, King Bael, for your powerful help!